THE HEART OF A CHILD

It is with a heavy heart to come up with this decision. I have to do this for now or else I would end up giving myself to emotional devastation. I have become so tired. Tired of running so hard to make both ends meet. Tired of thinking what more could I do in a faster way. Tired of always making the impossible.
I have painfully decided to let my kids move to another school with a much cheaper rate or to a public school near our place. Their previous school's expenses was so high that it would now really go beyond my financial capacity because of my existing insurmountable debts.
This decision had been with a painful struggle and confusion. I had asked myself so many times if I made the right choice or am I just running out of faith again that God can provide all our needs. I had been praying hard that God would let me understand His will as to where I would send them this year. If I will let them stay, my debts will not end and I will be running in a rat race again with fear and frustrations. Or, I might end up breaking apart.
He knows how I wanted to provide them with the best education. He knows how I wanted to let them stay in the same school to protect, especially, my son from derision and unacceptable. He knows how I wanted to shield him from bullying and the possible destruction of his self-esteem.
Boy and his pet

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